Battlefield

How should I feel when someone you love says that it takes effort for them to be happy? Immediately I think it takes effort to be happy with me? But he responds with no....in general..life. It takes effort to be happy in life. Even though it's not directed at me, I still feel hurt. I feel hurt because for me, being in love and happy is effortless. It makes me wonder if he really is happy with me and if he was effortlessly happy and in love with me, he wouldn't have said that. I know I'm reading into it too much, but how would it make you feel to know that your partner needs effort to be happy with you...with life. Maybe the way I see the world is different. Maybe I'm too positive. Maybe my thoughts on life are wrong. I always thought when you are truly happy, life is easy, life is good, life is effortless. But to hear that life isn't easy for your partner, it makes me wonder whether he is with the right person. I don't make life easy for him. I don...

Sometimes it hurts to hear the truth. Sometimes it hurts to hear what you don't want to hear. Sometimes it hurts to hear it from the person you love most. I try and I try again, but somehow it goes unseen. All I ever wanted was to be everything you wanted me to be. All I ever do is think of what you would want, what I could do to make you happy and to put a smile on your face. But once again, it goes unnoticed. I realize that I'm in love with the thought of love. I'm in love with the thought of falling in love. I'm in love with fairy tale ending. I'm in love with love. I realize now that I will never have the perfect love that I wish I could have. Perfect love comes with perfect expectations. Is that what I do? Is that what tears us apart? Is it one-sided? I feel like I've done my part in this relationship. I know I'm a caring person. I know that when I love someone, I really love them. I love them with every part of me. I do whatever I can to surprise...