Identity

It's been a while since I've counted the stars, recalling every wish and every dream I planted on each crystal in the night sky. As I look up above tonight, hopeing to do the same once again, I see nothing but a dark black sheet..I can't remember anything-no dreams-no wishes-nothing. Everyday, as each second goes by, I feel like I have been losing my identity of self. I can't seem to understand the real meaning to life, to striving for our dreams, because as of right now, I am lost.
Everyday, I try to think of what I can do to figure out why I am on this earth, to get a sense of my purpose, and I'm at my wits end, trying to make sense of the world, and I can't.
Its frustrating, upsetting, and disappointing.
A rush of emotions-jealousy-happiness-anger-envy, take over as I watch everyone around me become something, anything..they become their dream, their desires, their wishes, and it's like I'm stuck, my feet are cemented to the ground, and I'm surrounded by 4 walls.
Forever trapped.
I don't know how to begin my journey of self, but I keep looking for answers, for anything that can help me remember my dreams and desires and wishes, because they're hidden away in a box.
I can't find them.
I can't see them.
But I can feel them..waiting for the opportunity to arise.
And so my journey begins with the question..
Who am i?
Find the answer to that, and I'll be right on track.

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